a society full of plastics-non degradable shit

human beings are fake like plastic. i'm an idiot and i think getting attention sucks. especially unwanted ones. i'm starting to realise that i might have to act for the rest of my life. ah. maybe not tat bad. but perhaps i'll continue acting. tat's my profession anyway. but i hate it. i wish that ppl will juz drop dead and stop watching. better stop watching before i really turn into an introvert and keep everything to myself. i'm already an idiot. dun make me an idiotic introvert.
i cant help but to get affected by that comment juz now.
anyways. tml's the verdict. watever u call it.
contact list is killing my printer. i can hear it crying.

i dun wan to avoid ur eyes.
the fear of lifting or turning my head to look at u.
i hate to keep my head down when i walk pass u.
i hate to pretend tat we are just frens.
i hate to keep the distance when we are walking.
i hate to keep myself occupied wif everyone else juz to avoid talking or looking at u.
this is wat's going on inside me.